sometimes it just all comes together

originally this blog was going to be a testament of my training to complete an ironman competition. however, it has morphed into more than that.  more than a daily log of training runs, distance swims and spin class reports.  it seems to have become my outlet. my "disappointment that was my opportunity in disguise"

i was blessed with the trait of spontaneity, otherwise known as speaking, doing and acting without a filter.  it comes into my head and then "bam" there it goes. only realizing later the consequences of my actions.  some may think this is a bad habit and would work to perfect the ability to hold off and think through a situation, a planner if you will.

if we are being honest, this "habit" has not always worked in my favor.  there have been many a times i've purchased things that might have been a bit to expensive, said things i wish i could take back, signed up for races that i wasn't sure i could finish.  but then again being spontaneous is what led me to discover, explore, and allow myself to try to meet all those expectations, that i set for myself along the way.

as for the training, i've been taking in the lonely runs along the lake. its God's country up here. i've kept them short all about 5 miles, the air is thick and the sun is hot, i hope dc treats me a little better. i'm trying not to be hard on myself (after all that's part of the reason i'm up here) and i'm riding casually, trying to force myself to get in the lake and swim. its the one event that i once thought would be my hardest just based on difficulty and lack of technique. as of late though, everything has been "just coming together" for me so oddly enough i'm not that worried about it. 


i'll close with this....as i was driving back from meeting some family members for dinner last night, its been 25 years since i'd seen them last.  upon discussing what a wonderful night it was and how happy i was to have reconnected with them my good friend (who accompanied me to dinner) turned to me and said "look at where you've been in the past month"  those words were that final rock i needed lifted from my shoulder.   because look at how far i have come!  now i'll let things fall into place whether i plan them or not.